Giveing thanks where it's due

I just thanked my Father for sticking me in one place.  It pretty much told him of why I just can't stand his one sister so much.  I love the 2 younger sisters dearly(my aunts on his side).  The 2 Aunts That I really adore from my Father's side gave me the smack down that I really needed at times that I needed it all.  Along with my Real Mother's side also.  So I have had strong Women around me all of my life.  Includeing the Woman who raised me.  And a HUGE thanks to my Jane for not eating crud off of my Fathers side of the family.  I learned alot of all of them thru the years.  Even when I was just totally unbareable thru some of it.  Even My Jane knew I would be ok after all when I grew up.  It was just the matter of time before I told some folks to shove it.  And I am still like that today.  I don't get rattled to much but, when I have had enough who ever pushed me over the edge hears about it.  When folks say I am way to emotional never on my part of things.  I get sick of being pushed and bang I explode.  I don't eat much crap from anyone.  I know when to hold my tounge in my head.  When I don't the person knows about it.  With some "Rich Folk" they just don't understand the fact that I will give them how it is and don't care who you are niether.  Or how much money you have or who you boinked in life.  I know one Billionaire that just loves my bluntness.  I have known him for years also.  Eather way I keep my good friends close and I don't care in how much money you have.  I grew up believing this.  For the most part it is true that not all the Millionairs and Billionairs are just snotty.  Unlike the ones how have lost touch with reality in life. 

Now I can really laugh at the room

Ok I have been out of the chat room for over 2 months now and it is still the same people in there as when I left.  All I can do is shake my head on this.  I won't question the loyalty of some people for Doc at all.  I jsut got sick of the crap and I am happy I am out of there all togeather now.  As I sit here and look back on the room it was very toxic to myself to stay there as long as I did.  I do not trust many people and now I understand why I don't at all.  Well after being called gay by an Idiot that doesen't know his ass from his head I coulden't go back at all.  And realized that if I really wanted to eat the B.S. I would have took a child in that was not related to me at all now.  Well I took a stand on my opinion and I still think that Buddy "Doc" Howard is sleeping with a couple of the gals that are in his room after the comments that were made to me in AIM I don't need the room at all now.  Now with a clear mind thru it all I don't know how I stayed in that room as long as I did with alot of the AOL Back Stabbers.  I am the type of person that will give the shirt off my back for someone if I trust you.  After 3 years I pushed to see where it went to and got called alot of names and threatined all at the same time.  Pluss told I needed a head shrink on top of it.  I was blunt and told the truth on how it was appering to me at the time.  Apparently I was right becuase who would start calling names if the person who told the truth was right on what was going on.  After I was out of the room for almost 2 weeks in PA in May and June I felt good.  And nobody cut me down at the ankles while I was out of the room to my face.  I will say that I am cheap by choice by some standards today.  Useing coupons and streaching out everything more than normal.  Once the Room owner told me that I coulden't except AIM chat from folks out side of the room.  And who the Hell does Doc think he is anyway.  When it is work related guess what I refuse to go broke for anyone.  And way to many people have been thrown out of "Doc's" room over the past 3 years.  I was also told that I was way to sencitive to be in "Doc's" pressants.  It wasen't that I got tired of the crap he dished out to people that He felt was Trash compaired to His ass.  Most folks compaired to Doc are human and not robots at all.  I lost my way for about 2 and a half years and regained my back bone to stand up to the maniac.  Once the idiot realizes that you won't bow down to his tactics then he bounces you on the curb.  I know I am better off without the room altogeather now.  And after I sent out E-Mails of what was said I was told by some that I was causeing Drama when I was telling the truth.  IF drama is the truth so be it then.  Not alot of people like me being Blunt anyway and I don't care if they do like it or not.  I will be outspoken eather way I go.  Now a few days after I asked nicely to be put on ban from the room another person got tossed also.  Well she stuck up for a new room member and paid for it.  Becuase all the HandOuts that Doc wanted the higher ups to hand out said the same thing over and over again.  Once folks realize that Doc is really full of crap then they wont even go into the room anymore.  Yes I understand there are rules for life.  There comes a point in time to yes I also swear also and who doesen't.  Eather it is under your breath or other wise.  When I realized I pushed Doc to tell me to F off then I knew that he swore in real life.  What Doc wants is a woman who can be controled and won't waver from what he says.  I delt with that with the ex hubby I don't need another idiot to tell me what to do when to do it or get a fist in the jaw for what I was doing right in life.  When some people say straight out that when they get verbally abusive and the recieving end desirves it sorry that is when I know he is a true Looser in life.  And the fists will come out also at some point in time.  The warning was there from someone who knew Doc personally.  Pluss the red flags went up also if folks paid attintion to it all.  WHat some diden't like about me is I don't put up with it and it took some thinking about the whole thing.  I asked before to be band from the room and then had to beg for it.  I got sick and tired of being told when and how and NOW. 

All the time I was in

All the time i was in the Batards room I never got a full List of the auto cop words he "The Little Boy" had.  Now I understand why all togeather.  Becuase Nobody is perfect at all.  Not even "Doc".  If someone was that perfect he would know how to cook also with everything else as the ass claimed to be.  I am some what bitter over it becuase I diden't give it to him like I wanted to also.  I am not fake like the little girls that Buddy "Doc" Howard dates.  Over the past 3 years I pretty much lost myself when I walked into the Bastards room.  When I finally got My Spine back It damn near Killed him all togeather.  And I damn near lost all the work I did have also becuase the "Little Boy" diden't want none of us to pick up squat out of the room.  So I pretty much cut and slashed becuase I knew it was gonna be hard.  Ok I do not bring in over a Million dollars a year like some folks do.  I am one of them folks who make the world go around eather way.  I am not at all "green" at all but I reuse reuse and reuse some more.  And I do cut the power down when I can at all times around here.  I do not live in a huge house niether.  SO call me Trailer Tash if you have to I really do not care.  The only trash that is out there is when someone else call others trash.