Finally realized

Well at least I can say that I have realized some things in the past almost 4 months around here. When some people have dumpped me as a friend around here I was fine with that part and still am at this time. When I picked up my phone yesterday morning here I found 3 texts from an ex friend here saying that she missed myself and my Husband and she still supposadly loved us also. I figured she needed more amo to tell her daughter some more lies in what is supposadly was going on here in my household. I point blanke told her straight out after almost 4 months of you not being here I feel better and give it up totally since I still did not want anything to do with her at all. The red flags basicly were figured out on the person and I just could care less in what she does anymore with her life. All I can say is that since the gal has not been here I have been better off and the house and yes I said house has got alot cleaner. That is one of the things that I have figured out around here was that my Husband did barrow money off of the gal and I am the one that paid her back totally then got dropped about 4 months later also for paying her toush back here. Ok so I scraped up the 6 grand to pay her back also here. Also I ended up going that much cheaper for the household also since the trailer. So now at this point in time I have got way to much done in the house here and the pain has pretty much been at bay here except 3 handfulls of times since the car accident and the surgery also after all said and done when I was finally free of the gals clutches.

Now I will tell you

Ok at this time do not go with Countryside Stove & Chimney at this point in time period in Western NY State. I had called them on 6/16/11 for an appointment that day here at the household and yes I bought a house at this point and all I got was the inspection here for the fire place period about 2 weeks before my surgery for my neck after my accident here. Now I have called at least 4 times and my Husband called 2 times here and the last time we all called we got the same thing do what ever and we do not care since we can not get the parts for your place Period and do what it is that you will here. With that said around here I did have an appointment on Tuesday 12/20/11 here to get the fire place fixed totally and the appointment got cancelled without explination here to me except the parts were not there period around here and it would be 2 days to a week before they got in. Ok fine I called yesterday here to see where I stood after the 5th call to the company here and got told that the parts were not ordered and tough shit sit back and wait untill we all call ya for it and when we have the parts unlike the last time I was told to go ahead and burn in it since it did not matter to the owner anyway in what the heck happened anyway here. Now having the paper work in front of me and I had talked to one of the owners about 2 weeks ago with him saying there is nothing wrong with your fire place and go ahead and burn in it here now I know he does not care what so ever in what happends. Even when I had warned him about getting in touch with the BBB and running the blog without a problem and there is 3 blogs here. The guy told me go for it and he did not give a rats ass in what I did in those words over the phone here to me. So now at this point I guess I will have to do in what I have to do here to keep everyone warm and to keep the vet bills down with the birds also. So now I am here to warn ya about companies that will not fallow threw here and go ahead and call here on them when you are not happy with the answers that you get out of them here and now.

Throwing out people

Well I threw out my Niece Stacey out of the trailer before I moved into the house. I was totally on track with some things before the girl moved in and it went to all Hell after I said ok on a temp basis in the can. I had the power bill down to about 95 dollars a month, the grocery bill was about 150, and the water bill was 15 dollars for 4 months around the place at the time before I got smacked with 400 dollars between the power and water bills for the can and the grocery bill went to about 450 dollars a month weather I liked it or not. THen Stacey's Boyfriend Ryan asked my Husband if only him and her could move in then quickly changed to the both of them and their friend could move into the house here with me. That is when the demands of Ryan came my way after I said let me think about it. I said no in the long run for the place. Ryan and Stacey got mad at me and that is ok now at this point. Ya do not demand out of me and deside ya know what is supposadly is best for me also in the same breath. Now that I have several things almost straight in the household here I am doing better without some folks here. THe grocery budget went down to about 200 dollars a month around here without a problem at all. I gave myself that amount just in case if a month got really bad and I needed to stock up. Other than that I am totally out of the trailer park and the crappy management. I got blamed for alot of things that I just did not even bother to do over there and I am seeing it all now at this point in time with some trying to run their mouths. Pople like Leona Cox and several other folks on the block. That is when I started keeping a very low profile around Sabre Park totally. Now the place that I moved into the neighbors could care less in what I do around the household and that is how I like it around here. Nobody Bitches of when I hang the laundery up in the household at this point or outside. Now I can say that alot of petty people live in the area I mean it.

Well finally figured out of why

A family fued has been going on for at least 150 years if not less or longer and I realized why now. It will be going on for the next 300 years if I have my way around here. Now my children will never know thier half sister PERIOD after this point. They will know about her but, to know her never while I am alive never. Italian families and being burnt from another family that had squat to do with it in the first place theres another battle that will be fought. I will be the first to admit that I do not trust many folks anyway that are near me or close to my Husband. I have never complained about squat about his friends at all in the past 16 years or so at all. Well the wrong advice gets people into trouble all of the time and this time I am in the right. Now I have always said that some folks have to step up to the plate eather way in life and my Step Daughter has no choice at this time. Since it was part of my job to break into e-mail accounts and computers for a living at some point in time for a job. Pluss her moms side of the family has been fueding with my dads side for over 100 years now I know why and how and I will stick by my decission on things untill some step up to the plate and I refuse to get battered with my own arm for reaching out any more I am done with it all. I have erased the email and refuse to get it back at all costs to my one self worth and knowing that I would get blamed for more than what the trouble of everything is. I did my part and will never ever know my grand babies from a person that I love and will always love and that is her own loss in life now. At least I do not have to explain Mom who do I look like altogeather and the hatred that comes with it once the child hits 18 years of age and figures his own Mother and her Mother are full of crap also. I will be sticking to my foot planted for the next 100-300 years weather folks like it or not. Oh well Life Death and Taxes with family fueds gotta love it.

Well I just do not like last minute

This is the last time I do things at the last minute for anyone. You can't call me at least a week in advance then I can't take ya to the airport then I am busy. Well we both over slept in my place and my Husband went to get them. And the last advice from the couple that I ended up getting I knew where I stood. Now with me saying this about what happened with acouple of emails back and fourth to an ungratefull girl I still refuse to say what it all said and the girl needs to step up to the plate for a change not me. I say this then this way I am not blamed for breaking into her email account and a few other things. What I have done with computers I can easily break into accounts and a few other things. I WILL NOT GO TO PRISON FOR ANYONE BUT, ME MYSELF AND I. With the other advice that I did get about it out of 10 others they are saying that I was in the right for standing my ground on the situation pluss now others have to step up to the plate for a change. At this point in time when I totally walked away from the crap that has been going on for years back in 2003 I got told that I need to start walking from what someone said about me and of all places it happened in a Church. I refuse to lie about what I did at all and there was nothing that I did to warant the keep walking for my own safty also becuase, I refuse to be scared of anyone here in NY State. Maybe becuase I have had the shotgun in my mouth and someone tried to blow my head off at 15 years of age also. I have always thought about the Girl and that was about it over the past 7 years. Now I will keep wandering IF my Grandbaby is safe and has no worries going on. I will admit I did erase the E-mail that was sent to me and I am greatfull that I did. I will always be blunt about things that are going down and up and I will stand my ground on this one becuase, some things are better said in person. I am saying this becuase I have always steped up to the plate on things and will keep it up weather people like it or not. If I diden't do it then I would have aton of regreats out of my life. Pluss if I told the girl what has happened to me thru my life I would make her toes curl up and hair go straight then make her life look like it was on a bed of roses along with her Mothers life.

Well I got told

Well at this point in time I am still sticking to my guns on alot of things around here. I have been going really cheap around here anyway even with the plucked chicken being here. Pluss I tried to get something off my chest and that blew up in my face also. All I could do was shake my head and go from there. Well I have also figured out that I will always be wrong in what I do and say eather way while I am up here in NY State. My question is when did the Children become lazy and can't stand up for them selves most of the time. Or maybe becuase I am such a scrapper that I have to wander about alot of things in todays world. Anyway at least I spoke my mind and I just don't care anymore. I will still think of some people and knowing what is about ready to come all I have to do is hold my cards knowing that I was in the right for standing my ground around here. Pluss knowing of what was said to a child and all the lies also. I finally told someone of why I walked away also years ago and what was said. It just wasen't worth proveing awhole lot of folks wrong in what was said about me at all pluss there were alot of other factors that came into play while I was at it all at the time. When I can sit here and say that I would do nothing differant than what I have done while I was and still am up here I am ok with myself on alot of things that were done and said and still being said. I will admit that there are times were I am very blunt and I will not change that part of me at all. Maybe some see that as a fault, I am looking at it is a good thing. I am not perfect by any means and show me someone who is perfect and has no faults of thier own. This is why I do not throw stones at all untill I look at myself first and work on myself. Pluss I plot out what I do and say. Sometimes I have to be harsh and blunt at the same time and then when I do that I stick to my guns at all times.

Well now I know why

After about 2 weeks now I kow why I feel in how I feel about my step daughters side of the family. After talking with my family members and why some havent got along within 150 years of life I don't wander any more now. It diden't click in what some said untill today. Well after my Husbands ex told me first thing when we met that he would cheat on me first chance he got, I looked at her and said well guess what the .45 and the cast iron out won in everything. Well the Italian side of the family got thrown under the bus if that means anything and the blunt side came out PERIOD in the mix. Well I do not see the girl haveing the "Balls" to step up to the plate at all if 2 weeks ago if any time at all. Ayla has screwed herself majorly with me. I have steped out with her and her father at this point and I can still fight for Grandparents rights here in NY State. That is what this girl doesen't realize at all so can her father at this point. If that comes totally down to it trust me I will fight for my grandbaby period and screw everyone else on the list in who said to show the E-Mail to my husband last week. Yes I came up swinging and guess what people are about ready to get cornered eather way. I am not ready to strike on it yet. Stressing YET. When Parents who are eather are not married or have been divorced You Have TO Worry About What The Other Says. I put up with the B.S. for over 30 years with some folks. My Step Daughter had no other side to listen to except the SUPPOSAD WOMAN WHO TOLD HER WHAT SUPPOSADLY HAPPENED. The Mother got caught cheating on her ex husband with another guy about 5 years ago and that is about in how old my grandson is. Well with one thing don't take it out on me in what the other said when I could have moved 10 years ago out of the tin can. Left no Numbers and no forwarding address at all.