Putting it all togeather now

I have put alot of things togeather in the past 4 years.  Now over the past 4 years I know why in what Liberty-Ann did with part of the paper work for custoty for her.  The girl diden't wanna live with me only becuase she had to tote the line with me and prove herself that she was worthy.  I diden't have to hit her at all after I thought about it now.  Just smack her room up and take everything away pluss several other privlages that she wanted in my household.  Like haveing the Phone and the internet untill 1 am.  And a T.V. in her room.  All things were automaticly took away when she came here untill she learned what the rules were and the realaty of life.  Fallow the rules and you get privlagies in my place is what I can say.  Not only that I would have had to hide everything.  Money,booze and other things in the household with Liberty-Ann here.  I knew she woule sell what she could get her hands on at the time.  Liberty-Ann could have had a good life here and diden't want it.  Since I diden't find the paper work I diden't show back up to court.  And since she was a minor I coulden't giver her anything techniclly out of the household with not being related to anyone.  So Liberty-Ann is lucky in what she got out of me.  This child diden't hurt for squat in the life with my Sister-In- Law.  Liberty-Ann did what she wanted when she wanted to.  And got what she wanted at all times.  It is pretty bad when her supposad best friend wanted to come with me to live here in NY State to learn from me.  I still wander about the girl that wanted to come with me and if the girl is ok.  And if the girl made it in life so far.  There is a glimmer of hope in any light.

Wandering why on alot

Now I know some people like to over spend in life and I wander why sometimes.  Some now I don't wander why anymore.  Instead of the couple that was invited over for thanksgiveing calling me like they were suppose to to let me know if they were coming or not I found out the day before that they were going someplace else after I pulled and dethawed a 20lb bird that monday before the holliday.  So I said fine and thanks for the phone call before hand.  After all this I have totally gave up on some people who like to start hollering about being broke.  This is after both took the day off to go Hunting instead of working then posted it on a web site for everyone to see.  I am sure that one of them called in sick also.  Now some of us have been makeing it on very little and still manage to pay the bills off every month instead of bounceing checks every month also.  Pluss I have kept my place stocked up for the most part while I was at it.  I am not saying I was just totally destatude thru it all but streaching out everything that I needed to also.  When some households bring in 1100 a month compaird to 4 grand a month if not more there is a problem here.  The couple that I am talking about can't understand why I speak my mind and refuse to go broke becuase they want me to.  My Bills are paid up to date also and food in the can.  Ok so I don't pull from the freezer when I am by myself and have leftovers still in the fridge.  There are alot of things that I just can't sit back and say that is right in what some folks do also.  All I can say is the couple better get thier shit togeather before they get the kids in thier place.  Like food in the house and the heat turned back on also.  And clean majorly from the 2 dogs who enjoy marking thier taratories also.  I asked the one day about beds for the children and a few other things also and I was told that at that time that a book shelf was more important than the kids.  After that I blew gaskets all the way.  I just coulden't believe my ears when the person told me this.  The children would be better off in a foster home at this point without the parents involved at all.  At this point I am totally out of the situation in hand and I have to be before I start really blowing gaskets.  My question is who is gonna watch the children when the both of them go hunting for the year.  It won't be me at all I can tell you this.  The last time I was there it was just a total disaster area becuase of 2 out of 3 dogs.  And I really hate to say this but Niether one clean in how they are suppose to at all.  That is the sick part about the whole thing.  Ok both of them work big deal.  The house work should fall on both people in the house not just one.  There are times when the Hippy will step in and tell me to go sit down.  Maybe becuase that is how some were raised in life.  Now I just don't care if the electrition and his wife cut me down at the ankles anymore.  I know I am doing what I have to to keep the place going. 

Came to realize

I am the only one that is doing house work around here.  And the Hippy gets pissy if I do not give him sex also.  Needless to say I do have poped blisters that are self inflicted where the fabric just irritates the whole mess.  Oh well holliday week began today.  As if dishes, laundery, and dinner diden't exsaust me already.  I am just relieved that we do not have any kids yet other than fur balls and a feather ball.  I am gonna get as much done tonight as I can since I am feeling so so.  This is my second load of dishes today.  Who needs an automatic dish washer when they have me.  I still need to pull the damn bird out of the deep freezer as always also and make room for it in the fridge.  Some Mommas never tell thier boys that the woman in their lives get more work as soon as thier feet hit the floor out of bed in the mornings.  Between the kids, housework, and cooking.  One of these days you will find me on strike form doing everything in the can.  And I just don't care anymore.  Now for the woman who still have kids at home God Bless ya and I am hopeing that the other half if you have one helps out.  My cousin is the low life that she is and has an 18 yearold  liveing with her mooching of course.  Just like her ex boyfriend.  And the Little Girl is in debt up to her eyeballs now becuase of stupidity.  I own what I have and I still have to pay lot rent on the can.  Maybe I should hook her and "Doc" up they are made for eachother like Liberty-Ann is also.  Well my so called cousin and niece loved to be controlled in some way or the other so I broke away from the both of them.  Now I can really laugh becuase I haven't mooched off of anyone and refuse to also.  I would rather go dumpster diveing for food and other things before I mooch off of some elderly and/or sick person in life.  I won't do it.  I have done everything on my own so far and why bother to start mooching now this late in life.  I can really say I was taught well and never asked for anything except maybe a candy bar becuase it was a treat to me when I was a child.  So now since the So called cousin of mine is in debt up to her eyeballs I can laugh at her now.  Now I guess I got samrt and started to go to the tax auctions for a real house.  If it needs work that is fine by me I can do most of it myself now days to save money.  That is what I get for haveing nothing done for me over the years.  I was always told shut your mouth and you may as well learn it now becuase you may need it later on in life.  The Woman who raised me I thank her now after all of these years becuase she was right. 

Happier now

I am so happy to be out of The Jack Asses room it is not even funny.  Now it is like I am makeing more money out of the room than In the room.  I like it now.  If that is all I had to do was Drop DOC on the curb I would have done it long ago also.  Pluss now with a clear mind set it helps even more.  If a person tells you in the chat rooms never pick up Instant Messanger even if you know them IS A CONTROLE FREAK or a looser one.  Or both.  If they are on your buddy list pick it up don't let yourself loose out on a friendship eather way or a Buissness deal that you have.  IF it is work related Screw the person that tells you do not pick up the Im's that is a biz deal that you need.  Or other friends.  That is what irritated me the most about Buddy "Doc" Howard.  He wants all women at home and not working weather you have a family to support or not.  He brings in enough money for at least 5 households and could give a rats behind if you are hand to mouth or not.  Now with me it got old and quick and I ended up doing as I wanted anyway.  I work as a freelance in alot of ways.  And I need to Im and email others to let them know what I did for the day.  DO what you feel is right in the chat rooms if you deny the format that is on the room owner not you.  I live my life very truthfull and don't care if people like my bluntness or not.  Now with the "RICH AND FAMOUS FOLKS" they forget what it is like out in the real world.  ANd the spoild brats that have champein tastes on a beer budget pocket.  The 30 dollars today will last me for at least a month in my place for a familly of 5.  Please tell me where I went wrong with a comfertable sofa and liveing cheap in life and I do not mind sticking my foot up someones toush when need be.  That is what is wrong with the contery today is the government has to much power over the rich and the kids. 

Now happy as a pig in mud

After I dumped "Doc" on his ass from my place I dont have to eat anymore BS from anyone.  That is includeing my supposad niece also.  Nine months 4 days and counting for Liberty-Ann to contact me again.  And I was suppose to get Liberty-Ann after my sister in law passed away.  I diden't want the child to begin with anyway knowing she wasen't a true family member from the Mercer, Young, nor my  Hippies side.  This child HATED me from the start becuase I put my foot down right away from the start.  Ok I will admit I am  like my Mother In Law to a point.  I do not put up with Crap from any Child out there becuase I am old school on way to much.  I have rules for my household no calls after 9 pm no computer niether also.  T.V. is not alowed untill you prove to me you are worthy for it.  And keep your grades up past the passing point of Niagara Wheatfields standards.  Which are less than Collinsville unit 10 standards in grades.  Now when I was 16 I had 3 jobs went to school and had 3 kids pluss married at the same time.  Liberty-Ann Mercer Has had it way to easy in her life time now except she was finatually abused from 16 on by her supposad SISTER.  Back ground check is that Liberty-Ann is no where related to the Mercer Youngs nor Slaghts in Punxy Pa Nor Here in NY State.  The best we can all figure is her dad is a cabby out of Lockport Ny, or a Canadian.  Even the Lawyer who fudged the paper work is now gone.  Now that Liberty-Ann Mercer is with a person who will take all the Finatual abuse at this point in time (2 grand a month) That I know of and claims to be her TRUE sister.  I am glad the judge in Brookville Pa seen it my way along with the Hippies way.  The way that Liberty-Ann Mercer was acting at that point she needed a body bag to my stanards in life and I do not have to tear her down nor build her stupid nieave ass back up with the "Real World Things" of life.  Liberty -Ann and Buddy "Doc" Howard would make a good pair in real life since a girl is 18 and she is trainable still as of yet.  I have not yet indulged my ex hubby in what the Bastard has said to me as of yet so let the warning go out to the stupidity of some little boy who wants to tear me down theres Me and the Ex you have to deal with at all times.  I refuse to deal with selfish babies in the world.  And do not come to my door step niether unless you wanna learn something from me from now on.  Docsaplaya will bs you to no end untill he trys to say you are trash compaired to himself when he is the biggest pice of trash out there poseing as a millionaire.  So figure there is good and bad in every class of folks and untill ya get burnt then you know.

Now for some folks

Now over the past 3 years I have been able to spit farther than some.  My supposad nice Who is now were related to eather side of the family you can reach the trash/slut at daddys1pumpkin@yahoo.com for a good time still.  I am so happy I dident get her at all still at this point.  The girl wanted everything and sorry at the time she was a minor without a true home so she owes me Money still.  And the true daughter was gonna get squat in Liberty Anns eyes that diden't happen niether.  The state of PA who spoils the children under the age of 18.  Who knew with Legal paper work and my hands were tied at the time with 8 HUGE INDIANS running from me with one singal phone call to my phone.  My answer was gonna be no untill they talked with the proper people at the time.  Now I wish I would have sold things off before hand and said sorry for the loss.  This is the problem with todays youth out there.  The Children have been babied so much that the states say you can't do nor parent the child also.  I say it is time to take back the role of the parent and the child needs to learn this and screw the states in where you live at common wealth or not.  What ever happened to the time where you could correct your child and get by with it.  And if you left your child for more than 12 hrs a day and CPS or the states agentcy was at the door of they couldent wipe thier ass yet nor responsible for what they did and thier sister did.  Yes I did call the CPS agents up here in NY STATE since nobody else wants to do anything else about a child skipping school or being suspended for the past 6 and a half weeks and part is with head lice.  And school has been going for 8 weeks so more missed than the child being in school.  So I see a big problem is what I am seeing with both parents is none is there for both children.  And folks say I need counceling not a chance in HELL now.  I am part of the old school of things on what to do and raiseing children.  I grew up trusting nobody and with good reasons.  Gee at least 7 major highways at one junction in the St. Louis area.  HMMMMMMMMMMM go figure.  Rough area then the junctions of the hwy. system to top it off.  Ok I grew up rough and tumble and then working when I was 15 also and married at 16.  With the first marrage I was beaten into a pulp and ended with my pelvic bone broken in 6 places on each side with 12 breaks on both sides.  So I don't hate all men just some who raise the red flags of an abused woman.  Like Buddy "doc" Howard he is one of the red flags.  What next a fist in the jaw from the spoiled rotten bastared.  I got away while I could.  And with the last E-Mail with "Doc" calling me a straight out Lesbian without totally knowing me.  I do not trust his ass to save my own Toush in life.  The "Little boy" hasent walked the walk except the poor little rich boy.

Life has went on

Now I am beginning to see some folks as who and what they are.  Now I don't tear many people down at all and that is how I have got along with so many people thru the years.  The people who are just plain mean in the world I have no use for them at all now a days.  I have always done my own thing and when asked I tell people what is on my mind and don't care.  Also I knowticed more people here where I am at will stab you in the back without a problem.  So I really stick to myself and like it better that way.  Then I do not have to worry about what I say or said to someone about something or someone.  I noticed that the Upper Middle Class and the Rich folks are very snooty and mean here in NY state and in other places also.  Not saying that all Rich people broadcast in how much money that they all have and not all are just snotty.  Most of them forget on who does the grunt work in the state.  I live in a trailer and some folks will call me trash when they are the ones that are the real trash in the world.  Pluss now after being out of the Real Trashes chat room I have took a step back on what was said and how it was said.  And I kept my mouth shut for way to long on what has happended in the room and how it was ran also.  Most of the room from Doc is alot of the Real Trash that coulden't make it in the other rooms and need to feel like they are better than most of the folks in the real world.  It still amazes me in how much better I do feel not getting torn down and trashed on for makeing it in the real world doing grunt work.  I would rather have a smile for a thank you instead of being called a few names that "Doc" Buddy Howard called me.  And the red flags went up when he did cut down alot of people.  Includeing me in the room.  I have been called worse by better people than what he did.  It still doesent bother me to this day.  All I can say is that he is a very sick and lonely little man.  So now I know why I do not trust many people and like it like that.  The person who warned me was so right about what he did tell me.  And never ever did that person cut me down nor tear me down for what and how I did things.  And the why I needed to have a few beers to go into the snotty room.  Alot of folks have told me the same thing.  Now I can say that with how things are ran in the room I don't wander why there's hardly any one going into that chat room. 

I am still grieving

Needless to say a friend died about 3 weeks ago. I have been griveing for everyone ever since that time.  In who rude and discussting Buddy "doc"Howard is to tell me I will be the next one int he paper is just HEARTLESS on his stuppid asses part.  If I do I will haunt his stupid ass untill he dies himself and then some.  Then go after his children how ever many there is in this world.  First I am italian and then german and french pluss indian.  Mostly Indian and Iltalian.  I don't even wanna screw with myself what makes others wanna in the same since.  That says something when the person doesen't even wanna bother with them selves after all these years.  I am hard core next to some.  NY City has shit compaired to St. Louis and E. St. Louis at this point when "doc" grew up.  We were the merder capitole of the us for a reason.  Along with gary Indiana for a reason.  We all diden't play.  None of us at all.  Ask the past governers of the state of Illinois. That is why the Spitzer girls diden't spit.  Need I say more.  Nothing suprizezes me anymore.  If floks don't see it then that is on them and let lem have a  .45 in thier mouth at 14 years of age.  I kept my life and then some. Now let folks say something about how I grew up.  And some wander why I drink in my age.  I try to froget but will comeback to haunt folks later on.

Notice for today

I have noticed after a couple of days of dumping most of the room members from Doc's room I have less Spam mail in the in box.  Please explain this besides his own stupidity.  Now I hope his room fails within 6 months to a year.  If you want The pricks room its the millionaires longe in romanitc aol's rooms created rooms.  Feel free to do what ever and do not ask for the 5 hound outs that he has in the room.

Well figured out something

I was at Walmart today craveing beer as I have the other half of my body with me.  Buddy "doc" Howard is crap now in my eyes.  Some women want chocolate I want beer go figure.  I will admit over the last year I have been drinking to go into his chat room to deal with the crud and the back stabbers in there.  And the Sex Kitten as I call her.  I would rather have long hair on the head than hair on the body.  That is why I am into the "Undertaker" off the buff babies.  Real red head and a real Man unlike Doc.  Once the verbal starts then the fist start to fly as I say.  Learned well with my ex- hubby.  Now tell me what a million dollars does to a pile of shit.  Make the man a more of a pile of shit.  I know not all Millionares are not like this but some are.  And some are like good folk you have to weed thru them all.  Now just to let most of you know I hate everyone includeing myself equally in life.  And dont accuse me of swinging one way or the other and hateing all men totally.  There is so much batteries can take care of before a "Real Woman" needs some male attintion also.  Now some men will tell you that i am the type of person that needs the smell and a few other things to nail someone and I have to know the person well before I nail them also.  What some do not realize about me is that I myself need alot of attintion before I do a man altogeather and I just do not trust men after I hit the age of 18 at all.  And now some can bite me after they have hit the Sundance Seen of movies at all times.  I am the down to earth woman who doesen't take word at face value any more in life.  The richer you are is a bunch of B.S. in my eyes now a days after that in what Buddy "Doc" howard has sent over the past 2 and a half years trying to tell me he was a good "man".  When he is in fact a Big Looser in real life and nobody wants him now.  Except one person.  And the person can have him becuase nobody else wants him becuase of the hair go for it.

Now it doesen't take to long

I figured out something in the past few days here.  Life goes on without a chat room.  And people that have been on a list are poping back up now.  Strange in how things are on that stuff.  Pluss it seems that some of the rich folk just keep getting nastier also.  Well after what was said in an email to me I can deal without some people in my life that just are not worth the time and I should have seen the red flags go up but diden't.  So now to the person who said what they did have fun enjoy it now.  Well all I can say is nobody is perfect nomatter how hard they do try in life.  People have flaws and face it that is how the world goes around.  Now I am still doing the cheap thing for myself and will continue to do so just to ride out the times and may keep them up.  So now when people start cutting me down to the ankels it doesen't matter to me anymore becuase I will do what I have to do to streach out things.  IF folks don't like it too bad so sad on thier part.  Now without the chat room my place got cleaned up and quickly also. 

I will admit i do drink here

Ok I will admit I do stay at home and drink at times.  But for some people to say that I am a drunkin Bitch is uncalled for.  My bills are paid to date always have been.  Some Millionairs just do not cut it in todays world.  Or they are pissed off at some of us that they can not control real women in real life anymore.  And I never said I was an angel on top of it all.  I always did things out of the norm growing up and married young the first time around.  And Doc Howard is like my Ex Husband never know when the fist was gonna come flying at any givin time.  I could bet money on my ex hubby to be the first one out in public to stick up for me at all times right or wrong and still can to this day and will.  I moved to the state of NY almost 15 years ago in this upcoming May.  I am alot healthier than I was in the state of Illinois.  And do not have to deal with half of the family that I have up here that just don't care.  Now I do cook clean and work at the same time.  When I take a week off from everything you can tell that I did.  I am cheap and will be cheap for my household.  I am sorry there is no way I will pay $120 a month on a power bill for my house or can.  I do live in a trailer/mobile home.  Alot of people live in a can.  Does that make us trailer trash no that is why some of us have neighbors.  As I was told today I do not complain at all unless it is major by the management of the park.  And people hardly know I am here alone for 5 days a week.  I just don't care who says what.  Never did anyway.  You eather love me or hate me there is no grey area with me.  Now that I am happy to be out of the chat room and away from an idiot of a man. 

Another thing about what has happened

Now while I was miss treated thru the first marrage the ex can bite me on alot at this point.  Still. The red flags went up and so on with "Doc" Howard.  So now I will still cook and clean for my own sanity.  And I am not the only one thinking the same way with the gut instinct of one of the ex room members is useing sex with the Room Owner.  Like it matters with me as long as I am out of the room.  If I wanted an italian stalion I would have asked someone.  My dreams are The Undertaker from the buff babies when he is totally naked at my door and ready with you know what waiting for me.  Doc is way to hairy for me and my taste.  Now do you really want the millionares lounges chat room still.  Most of the people are big girls that are left except one person.  The jack ass needs more fresh meat in the room but bounces most out becuase he is an idiot in training.  Alot of my stress is becuase I Diden't want my supposad nice in the first place.  Now I will count my blessings while I have them still.  Not haveing to hide things at all in my can at all and then some.  No I will admit that I do live in a trailer/mobile home.  In a way yes I am trailer trash with out the car on cender blocks.  At least I dont need SEX with a rich bastared to make a point to take care of my kids niether.  NY city is a joke to E. St. Louis in my eyes.  I mean no offence to it till you walked a mile in my shoes.  I raised 3 children and on 3 jobs with going to school.  Where is the jack ass now Still devorced and a woman beater.  Just don't verbally abuse a woman and figure that the woman will forgive ya.  I will include what was said at a later date.

Ok most of you know me as cricket being cheap

One thing has bothered me over the past 2 and a half years now.  I am still being cheap of course and have a new freedome and outlet on being cheap for the past couple of weeks here.  One thing I just can't shake is the mental abuse that a man tried to pass off onto me again.  Being devorced like I am know the red falgs and warning bells went up totally again with Doc Howard.  Now I must admit that someone warned me about the millionares lounges to begin with and God bless the Man who did.  So I did file that in the back of my mind on what could and would happen on alot of things.  So as I spent time in the chat room I seen some warning signs from the room owner that I just kept to myself of course.  And during the first few weeks that I was in the room really nobody knew what the Hell I was going thru except maybe 2 people at most at the time becuase I diden't trust and still don't trust alot of people to this day.  To Miss Laura I want to thank you publicly becuase you were going thru the same thing as I was with my own supposad niece but with other resources of you're own.  And the shoulder that I really needed to say that I wasen't looseing my own mind at all.  But anyway back to the chat room I met Miss Laura in there and one of the few that I could really trust in the room at the time also.  So after the past 2 and a half years of being in the chat room of Doc Howards some folks dident really know me at all and seeing folks bounced out of the room like what Doc wanted the room dwendalled down to about maybe 10 people now that are regulars.  I was one of the Moderatores that was bounced for not kissing toush in the room at all along with another person.  In the past week.  I asked 3 times to just plain out being removed from the room and I would have let things go in what was said to me of course.  I was just tired and diden't need anymore stress in my life than I already had.  Well as "Doc" said that I needed to grow up after the fits he pitched in the chat room and he said himself that people desirve it.  Sorry if I wanted to be cut down at the ankles over something I would have went to myfamily.  I haven't went full force on how I think Doc is a little boy that never grew up at all.  Nor his kiss butts that have screwed him from a gut feeling.