I sent another

I sent another E-mail to my step daughter today. From now on I will be bowing out if she wants to get ahold of her father and wants to see him. I made my mistakes out of life and refuse to let her do the same thing that I did out of life. Granted my family diden't help my situation out at all and now I am trying to repair the damage even almost 30 years latter in my life. It took my Husband for me to wake up and see the light with his Ex. Now I am realizeing what my Step Momma went thru with me and she was stuck just like I was and in the middle of everything untill I became of age. I missed out on alot becuase of all of my family and I will be damned if I will let it happen to anyone else that I have welcomed into my life and the poor girl was stuck in the middle of a battle. Now I have became Pissed off once again and Sorry Dad's out rule in my book still. My step daughters Mother really reminds me of my oldest sister all togeather in some ways a total CUNT in a half in my book. Even though I was always treated like total shit as a child becuase girls ment squat on both sides of the family. I have delt with that for over 34 years when I started realizeing what was going on especilly on my Fathers side of the family. This is why I have kept my maden name with my married name. I am a Viviano thru and thru to some point and the Mc Ewin part kicks in eather way. Ask the 2 5ths of Jack Daniel's that was coursing thru my systems when I turned my back on my Sister In Law. I get smacked eather way and things do Blow up in My face if I am not carefull at all times. Even when I do tell the truth on things it seems like I can handle it better if I do get told to screw off for telling the truth on things. I am sorry if anyone of my kids said to me I need 200 dollars for the baby guess what I will go hungery and thursty for the baby. Screw my own needs out of life at this point in time. Who else would do that for a child anyway in todays world. I take care of myown eather way and will always be that way. Just becuase some mothers feel threatened by the new wife at all times just bites now days. I am like my Momma give an opinion and drop it altogeather and let it play out. At least I was taught well growing up and that is why I have not said much over the years. Once I got tired of my Husband getting treated like Crap over the past 17 years here I will take a stand and don't give a Shit anymore.